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Giocoso
joyfully

Scherzo

Scherzo
playfully (usually in rapid tempo with rhythmic and dynamic contrasts)

Primo

Primo
first

Vivace

Vivace
vivacious; lively

Etude

Etude
a study

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As of January 2009 we became a family of six as we brought home our 2 (deaf) Ethiopian sons! January 2010 our 3rd daughter was born and now we are a family of 7! What a blessing! Jillian is a freelance American Sign Language(ASL) Interpreter but primarily a stay-at-home mom. Ashley is a Combat Engineer for the Marine Corps. This is a little of our journey!

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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Aren't we all butterflies?...

One of our sons had a rough Sunday night and hasn't bounced back from it yet...he has been spiraling and trying to take down anyone and everything in his path.

It is sad, frustrated, irritating, disheartening, heartbreaking, all consuming,...it is enough to say "will this always be the way it is for him?"....


Coming into the New Year I have to believe that in the end, we all have the chance to morph into something beautiful...

Monday, December 28, 2009

The fight for their healing...

Today I am blogging over at http://abushel-and-apeck.blogspot.com/ as a sub for my friend, Lisa. Many people think our family size is large, but she has double the mommy-load. I am honored to be asked to write for her blog while her family was away. I have learned so much from her journey.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Preview: The boys' first Christmas...

Big Momma (Ashley's mom) is here for the weekend and we are all enjoying her being here!

I love this picture even though not all the kids are looking at the camera or even smiling. It tells a different story: Vivace is frantically looking for a bow for Scherzo's hair so she can match everyone else. Even in the middle of the chaos, the excitement and everything-he wanted to be sure she had what he had. The child that had nothing wanted to be sure everyone had something.
"After Christmas Glow" of getting that ONE thing you "had" to have... 'Alive' stuffed animals. It talks and purs without notice, it completely freaks me out...but Primo has been begging for a pet for a year-I call this "middle ground" or "buying time"...*smile*

Waiting for Big Momma to come downstairs to start the Christmas Day activities!
(Thanks for the Spiderman PJs Grammee and Popple! The boys would wear them everyday and everywhere if we let them!)


Thank you all for the comments on facebook and emails asking about the boys and the Christmas celebration. I promise to blog more soon, overall we are doing good and we are spreading things out to help with sensory overload. We still have a few more traditions we held over until today and Big Momma waited to give the gifts to the boys until today too....more to come and thanks for thinking of us.
May you have a blessed Christmas weekend with your family and friends.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Mary did you know?....

This season 'Mary did you know' has really spoken to me in a new way. It is a song I have always enjoyed hearing and embraced the challenge of Interpreting accurately.

One of the things I get asked all the time is "If you knew then, what you know now, would you go back and do it all again?"

If you knew he would hit you, steal, trip you, lie, attack you, smear poop in the carpet and in the bathroom...If you knew you would hug him and his body would tense up as he pulled away, or you would have to put baby monitors in every room...If you knew that he would call you names, insult you, and try to manipulate the other kids against you...If you knew that he would refuse your love...if you knew everything you know now-would you go back and do it again?

The short answer is "Yes."

Sara Groves sings in "I saw what I saw":
I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it
Something on the road cut me to the soul


Did Mary hold his tiny fingers and know the nails would be driven through Him? Did she wrap Him in swaddling clothes and touch His soft baby skin knowing His flesh would be torn apart and His bones exposed? Did she kiss His forehead and know the crown of thorns would be piercing through one day? Did people stop to tell her that her son was beautiful or sweet and her mind race to the day they would call Him a liar and scream "crucify Him!"

I believe God prepares us for the moment, while sparing us the details of what is to happen. I believe His plan is best and to say 'I will be obedient'-is to say 'I will blindly follow'. To say 'I will follow Him' means to throw out the GPS and the planned pit stops...it means we don't pick and choose what part we want to follow and what part we want to skip over.

It means, "If I knew then, what I know now...I would do it all again-this isn't fate or chance...It's God. To question my ability is to question His preparation. To second-guess bringing these boys into our home is to second guess a plan that reaches far beyond me."

To know then what I know now would also mean that I knew after 11 months of heartache, prayer, testing, trials, deviant behaviors and manipulation I would receive an unmeasurable gift on Christmas Eve...the gift of my first real, true from the soul, spontaneous kiss from Vivace, a child that once punched me, now snuggled up next to me. His muscles relaxed and my heart full of hope for his restoration.

Merry Christmas to your family...May your path be blessed with support, love, understanding and the very unexpected from God.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

8 years...

2 Births
1 Adoption process of two children
10 Houses/apartments/rentals/base housing
4 DITY moves(Do It Yourself)
4 States we have resided in
3 Welcome Homes
18 Months apart for overseas deployments
27 Months pregnant
16 Months apart for work-ups and training exercises
23 Birthdays celebrated together and apart
2 Grandparents passed
1 Niece's birth
1 Sibling marriage (gained a brother in law)
5 Jobs outside the home (Jillian)
13 Countries Ashley has traveled to (all for work except one)
5 Churches we have regularly attended

and countless memories!

(Thanks for the video Beth!)



Happy 8th Wedding Anniversary Love!

Monday, December 21, 2009

Thank you....

I just wanted to say a big THANK YOU for everyone that has been praying for Giocoso's growth. As we posted online before-she was measuring quite small and my husband was still deployed. Now we have made it past the 36 week mark and she is head down and measuring at SEVEN pounds! She is now measuring larger instead of smaller for her "age"!
Thank you so much.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

December Family Pics (part 2)...

Not bad for 36 weeks prego :) Just happy to have Ashley home and especially in time for the birth of Giocoso in January!

Etude


Vivace


American brothers


The Anderson Crew


*Special thanks again to Beth for this heartfelt gift of her time and talent*

Before...

This morning a youth group member got up and spoke about wanting to organize her local FCA(Fellowship of Christian Athletes) to give to World Vision. She seemed to have learned a little goes a long way, and was excited to help out.
www.worldvision.org

The video played she had made for FCA and images of Africa appeared...

"Before, me dirty same."
"Before-no food, me too"
"Before clothes ripped, same me"
"Before no shoes-feet hurt-me same"

Vivace making each of these comments in open response while watching the video. He also smiled at each child as if he knew them. He pointed out broken down houses/huts and said "we didn't have one of those, lucky them."

I wept, as the images reflected from his face and he mostly smiled. This child of the streets, this child that knows hunger and fear. This child that once had no one, no things, no food, no home, no help, wasn't bitter. He reminisced about days that had passed with excitement.

"Before, no mom, no dad, no help, no food-same. America different, have have have have many."

Thursday, December 17, 2009

December Family Pics (part 1)...














Last Saturday one of my friends from church blessed us with her photography talents and took family portraits for us...she took so many amazing ones! I will post them over several days...




Thank you Beth for your gift and your heart!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

FAQ: Between the Ears...

Can the boys lip-read?
*No, If they can/could it would be in Amharic, not English and since we don't speak Amharic or any of the other 80ish languages used in Ethiopia, we really wouldn't know.

Are the boys related?
*They are now! We are all Andersons now...Vivace often refers to it as "American brothers, not Africa." They attended the same deaf school in Ethiopia, so they did know each other. Once our family was matched-they knew they were coming together.

Can they hear anything?
*Vivace is FULLY deaf. He doesn't even hear the loud military planes and such flying overhead. He is very sensitive to vibrations which are often created by loud noises.

Etude would be considered "hard of hearing" with his hearing aids. He can hear a good portion of speech sounds. However, he struggles to reproduce or understand those sounds. Many factors are at play: 1) Has his mind ever had access to speech to process it? 2) Is it part of a cognitive delay he has? 3) If we were speaking Amharic would he "get" more?

I notice they wear hearing aids..?
*Some where along the process the boys were told when they come to America they get hearing aids. We did take them to the ENT and the Audiologist to find out how much of a true loss they had. They were fitted and given the option to wear aids. Vivace mostly likes to wear them for church-to show them off. Etude will have several days in a row where he asks for them and then several days where he doesn't. They are given the option to wear them almost always.

Why are you having to Interpret for them at church?
*We attend a very small community church that does not even have a building. Although their funds are limited, I have no doubt if I asked for special accommodations they would strive to do so. Pastor Carlton has had exposure to the deaf/signing community and is very supportive.

We live in Jacksonville, NC. We do not have a large population nor a large group of Interpreters. Myself and one other Interpreter are the only ones that are Nationally Certified in this area. So my options become 1) attend a church solely based on them already having a signer or 2) Interpret for my kids at the church we feel called to attend.

There are 3-4 churches in this area that have signers. We have attended all of them. One of them we are VERY comfortable with the signer and her skill level. The non-denominational church was also a great experience, however at this time it is not where we feel called to be.

Signer: a person that knows sign language and is conversationally fluent, but does not hold a degree or certification in the field.

Interpreter: someone that has been tested and evaluated by the national committee and is held to all levels of the Code of Ethics(including confidentiality.) http://www.rid.org/

What sign language do you use with the boys/I thought sign language was universal?
*We use American Sign Language(ASL). There are various sign language systems, but ASL is the only one that is recognized as a fully independent language with its own grammatical structure, culture and seen as native to the D/deaf in America. There are some regional differences(like accents) from coast to coast. Each country has its own sign language, much as they have their own spoken languages.
Other American sign systems include Signing Exact English(SEE) and Pidgin Signed English(PSE). SEE is a sound based signing system that follows English word order and patterns, often regardless of meaning/concept. Pidgin is a mixture of ASL and PSE much as you would find a mixture of Spanish and English along the TX or CA borders.
*The boys knew Ethiopian Sign Language and a few ASL words: plane, eat, love, home, mom, dad, sleep, toilet, etc when they first arrived home.

Where can I learn Sign Language?
http://www.aslpro.com/
http://www.signingtime.com/
http://www.lifeprint.com/

If you are on YouTube: Keith Wann, TiffanyTHill, and Ewitteborg are all great examples of real ASL. There are MANY sign language videos claiming to be ASL-but many are not actual ASL.

How did you learn sign language/does everyone in your home sign?
*I graduated from Gardner-Webb University with my BA degree in American Sign Language. I have worked various settings as an Interpreter since August of 2000. (Medical, educational, community, religious, support groups, mental health, sports, concerts, etc) In February of 2005, I received my Certificate of Interpretation(CI) from the Registry of Interpreters for the Deaf(RID) and have maintained my national certification since that time by completing the required CEUs.
Ashley and the girls all sign some. Primo is the most fluent of the three but they are all signing with the boys and learning more everyday.

Do the boys attend speech therapy?
*Yes, BUT we do not focus on speech/lipreading as is often done in a traditional speech session. Our therapist is conversationally fluent in sign language and very respectful of the boys' primary language being ASL.

Vivace's goals are speech and language(ASL). For example: recognizing when his voice is on/off, understanding and correctly responding to why, where, what, who, when type questions, understanding sequence of events, understanding cause and effect, effective story telling, appropriate turn-taking...
Etude's goals are speech, language(ASL) and auditory. For example: recognizing and responding to his name being called, using his voice to call out for "mom" and "dad," identifying the direction a loud noise came from, responding to questions using more than one sign, using adjectives, understanding a question versus a statement, following 2-4 step simple commands/directions...

Did you know the boys were deaf before you adopted them?
*Yes, we set-out knowing we were specifically called to adopt a deaf child or children.

Who Interprets for them in the school system/what grade are they in?
*We homeschool and we are filling the gaps. Depending on the day and the subject we could be doing preschool activities or 3rd grade activities. We feel strongly the boys have several missing pieces and should be allowed time to fill in the gaps and be children, even if we need to revert to play-dough and finger paints ;)

Thanks for all the comments and emails.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

The hard truths our kids lived...

This morning we finally got to attend church again. I hadn't been up to taking all 4 kids and interpreting the service for the boys in my pregnant and overwhelmed state over the last 2 months. It was wonderful to go back to Rock Creek Community and fellowship with fellow believers.

This morning Pastor Carlton was reminding us to not leave Jesus as a baby in the crib, and not to start the salvation story at the manager. A story our boys don't know. Pastor Carlton reminded us that God was around long before earth and created everything.

Vivace saw my sign for "world" and asked what it meant....I explained: America, Africa, all land, all water, all places and all people. He paused and signed, "God made Africa?"

I responded, "Yes, God made everything, all people, all places."

Vivace chuckled and said, "God not make Africa! No food, babies die, God not there!"

He thought I was foolish for saying such a thing.


We recently received a Christmas card from Rosie's family. Her and Mike's little baby was in our travel group and Vivace loves him dearly. It had 3 pictures of baby A on there...Vivace asked if he had turned one years old yet. "Yes, he is one now," I told him.

He pumped both fists in the air and slightly leaped off the ground and giggled. He signed, "He made it! I love baby A. He not dead."

Turning one is a huge celebration to Vivace-it means they made it out of infancy and the loom of death and sickness.

I wonder if we loved Africa the way God loved us, if Africa's own children would not see it as God-forsaken. I wonder if we sacrificed for Africa even a portion of what God has blessed us with, if Africa's own children would see God's healing hand and love instead of looming death and poverty.

I wonder if 1 person can make a difference in this world...but I already know, because Vivace and Etude both have and continue to touch our family and the people that know them. Maybe the questions is when we will believe we can be the difference...when can we value their lives enough to give of ours?

Find a way to give life this season be a Hopemonger or a well digger or have a vision of the world that doesn't include preventable deaths. Love the forgotten.


http://www.charitywater.org/

http://www.hopemongers.org/

www.worldvison.org

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Meet me at the coffee shop...

2 hours we have been waiting to be seen for a Neuro Psych evaluation/diagnostic on Vivace....we hadn't even gotten out of the waiting room yet. I have all 4 kids with me. Do you know what that does to someone? Well how about a child with sensory integration issues? I was DONE. I wanted to be done with this place and these people. I didn't want to "need" to be there...2 hours of waiting and you start asking yourself "is this worth my time?"...."why am I here again"....

We finally went to the back into a small office where I was asked several questions...about history (what we know of it), medical (what we have of it), and bio family history (we got nothing)...then I was asked about my concerns for him.

I paused.

This isn't a conversation I like to have in a small office room with a stranger looking across the desk at me while typing his version of my answer-and also entertaining my 4 children. This isn't a conversation I like to have period. I know this is the right next step and that my hesitation to break open my soul and spill out my guts about this past year isn't getting us any closer to helping Vivace.

I take a deep breath and let my my mind wonder, I am sitting at a local coffee shop with my girls. Some I know well like Rosie from our travel group, Dawn our post adoption social worker and friend, Christina-my best friend that lives in SC, and some I only know online from my adoption support group and blog-but can trust to bear my soul to...I am surrounded by love and understanding. I am surrounded by people that want to see Vivace healed and don't judge him for acting out. I am surrounded by people that don't pretend to have any answers they truly don't have.

A few deep breaths and I have the smell of my favorite peppermint hot chocolate dancing in my nose, I hear Rosie's laugh as she bounces her beautiful son on her knee, I see Christina's reassuring smile she once used while I was in labor with Primo to tell me-in the end it is all going to be worth it...

Another deep breath and I begin, "Some of the behaviors we have seen this year that are alarming and concerning are...."

Friday, December 4, 2009

205 days have passed, leading up to.....








Homecoming prep....






















Revolving Door....

Within the next 72 hours we will be welcoming home Ashley...who has been so missed. He has been gone a total of 205 days, a little over 7 months.

He has missed:
*Primo's first 3 teeth falling out
*My 30th birthday
*Vivace learning to read
*Scherzo's progress in speech therapy from babble to sentences
*Ultrasounds of our daughter -due just over a month after his homecoming
*Etude's transformation from being physically infantile to climbing monkey bars
*July 4th celebration and fireworks with the family
*Thanksgiving
*His mom's birthday
*His grandfather's funeral
*His birthday
*Our move into base housing
and so much more....

Yes, I have thanks in my heart! He is home for Christmas! He is home for the birth of Giocoso! He is home-he is safe! He is safely coming home!

I am grateful for the extra support friends have shown-both locally and far away. I am thankful for the online adoption friends support network and their grace shown towards me as we have dealt with some hard issues.

But I must pause to point out....the door that Ashley is coming home for the holidays through, the door that he is coming home through to see Giocoso's birth is a revolving door. As we embrace hug, love and cry over his homecoming, down the street-in the next state and across the country people are embracing, loving and crying as they say goodbye to their son, daughter, spouse, sibling, parent, best friend, cousin, grandchild and knowing that the holidays just around the corner are going to be missed...a baby will be born and daddy will not be there, Christmas and no son, first birthdays and first steps shared online through delayed emails and letters.

You guys have been amazing support and covered our family in prayer, love and understanding. I want to say thank you-but I also want to challenge you to hear those numbers of "30,000 troops" being sent overseas and think of 30,000 Ashleys.

I am very grateful to have him home, but lets pray for and support the guys leaving as if we knew each one and the void their family feels.

This isn't a political statement on should or shouldn't troops be sent and where, this is family statement...families are being physically separated and we need you to love, pray and support us through it-if you personally know us or not.